You and I have not had the best relationship, in-fact it’s been quite tumultuous and this frustrates me because I love you. I need you Money. It is a world in which is so inequitable in many ways and I think that you are unfair in your distribution of yourself. You also support projects which are detrimental to humanity and the health of the Earth, which I am so very frustrated about. I wish you would be fairer and trust in the goodness of the souls of whom you avoid. I am one of them.
My whole life has been built on a debt to you; I am always paying off the past. I would like to break with that pattern and for you to come into my life freely, willingly and consistently.
In every aspect of my life I always endeavour to follow my heart and guidance – but Money, you make this very difficult when you don’t’ turn up promptly. For example, at the moment I feel very drawn to just be here for my kids and follow my writing dream – but I cannot do this if I have to go out and seek you and be dependent upon the Government for you.
I understand that you and I didn’t start our relationship off well. I have inherited a generational distrust of you and of seeking treasure as a means to escape poverty, but I deserve you in my life, just as much as the next person Money. I feel this distance between us where I don’t feel like I “get” you and you don’t certainly see me as a welcoming space to shower with your love. How do I become that person that you freely shower, because I don’t get it? And how can you get to know me better if you are constantly coming and going. How am I to get to know you if your presence is very erratic in my life?
I would very much like to have you come and stay in my life and for you to do the same for my children. I want my kids to feel the abundance and joy of you, of being able to spend and share you with projects and people that they love and are passionate about.
As for me, I have long had a plan for your presence in my life and am so excited for your arrival. I can’t wait to see the faces of my family and friends when I share you with them. I am so excited about moving into my own beautiful space with your help and never again feeling restricted by not having you around.
I love you Money. I love how you smell, feel and how you make me feel when I follow my joy and bliss – when I get what I’m guided to do.
Money, our history has been rocky and built up over generation, but I’d like us to start a new relationship. One that is both loyal and receptive but immediate and generous. Money, I ask that you rush into our lives (on behalf of my children) as a welcoming and open presence in our lives, to stay for my lifetime and all future lifetimes. I’m very excited about our fresh start and new relationship.
With much love and appreciation,
©Alyssa Curtayne 2015